What are YOU thankfull for?

Happy Thanksgiving, well ... Happy almost Thanksgiving, Im sure we all will be busy tomorrow with one thing or another, plus I knew I was over due on writing, so here I am...... This year I will be going to Thanksgiving at my sister, Selina's, we seem to be trading every other year, so maybe I'll get it again next year?! It's crazy how it kinda creeped up on me this year, considering last year me and my roommates had the biggest Turkey Day blowout we had all ever seen!! For those of you who werent there, we all decided to invite our families to Casa Grande for the holiday so we could all spend Thanksgiving with our families and together, It turned out to be a great success with most of our families making the trip up to the Lake. The planning started weeks ahead, and everything paid off, i think everyone that was there had a great time, and were able to take some really positive holiday memories with them. This year will be a much smaller affair, but i will be lucky enough to be with even more family, the only problem is there is so much family, and unfortunatley I cant be with them all, but being around latley has been something to be thankfull for. Something that did carry over from last year and could very well become my new Thanksgiving tradition is making the homemade Mac & Cheese! mmmmmmm!!!! A much smaller batch of course, im not serving more than 50 people this year! Anyhow, in other news, lets see, whats been going on? Oh yea, so my neice Lilian came to visit, we did the whole family thing all weekend, which was fun, but now she has just been hanging out here with me, I told her it was boring, nut she said she is having a good time, I thnk she is like me, and is happy to just be hanging out, which is cool, I think we have gotten to bond much more just hanging out and talking about life than having to actually do all theese things and then get NO chance to spend quality time, so YAY for Lily!! We did go out to a nice dinner on Saturday night at this Japanese restaraunt, Torii's, it was cool, Jason & Jennifer drove down from Stockton to join us, and then came to hang out at My sister's place afterward, which was cool cause I havent seen them in ahwile, so YAY for Jason & Jenn! What else? Its raining, which is cool, I think tonight will be abother Notebook night! If your a bird, im a bird! Alright, Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Love you all!

changes

So, im sure you will all be happy to know that i got a haircut and i havent wore the hat for almost 2 weeks! This is probably the last known picture wof me with the hat! It'a pretty funny, right? I dont know what it was I just LOVED that damn hat! I went through a very big hat period the last few years, ive had a lot of favorite hats but somehow they all end up lost or stolen, but lout of all of them i really loved this one, im not getting rid of it or anything crazy like that but for now, its retired! lol! Anyways, i really miss The Ellis' you damn breeders you!!! I wILL be there for the baby's bday however, so I can't wait til then, just a few weeks away! I still havent done any MAYJOR job searching, i know I'm a slacker, Im just happy getting by right now while I am still really enjoying being around my family, which i really do love being an Uncle full time again. When i was in Tahoe I loved being able to duck out to Gville to be with the family, I come from a HUGE family, so something about just being with them I really love. I do miss my friends ALOT tho but I love our memories, I need to create more memories with my family and all the little kids i find myself surrounded with! Deeper on the family note, i contacted my two older long lost sisters last week. Rena & Mia live in Galt, Ca, just south of Sacramento, and I called them when I was at my cousin's house that lived in the same town. So we all went over there, and honestly it was pretty nice, not to mention me and my cousin's I was with had started drinking, and when we got to their place they were celebrating Rena's Bday, so that was something extra special, she turned 38, damn, right!? Mia is married and has three kids, her husband wasnt there, but her kids were a trip, I havent seen my sisters in over 10 years and last time i did Mia's oldest daughter was only a few years old, so to meet a teenage girl was really something, er youngerst is 5, and all three very cute, we all got wasted and spent the night, im sure I will be seeing them again soon. I also went to spend the weekend with my beloved sister Selina, who i love very much and told her the whole story, and that I think I need for them to meet before I can really move on with this whole thing, not saying that if selina didnt want to I wouldnt have a relationship with them, but it would make me feel better about it if they could at least meet to, ya know, i dont know, but she told me she thought that was really cool and was totally down for the whole thing, so thats cool, ill keep you posted. In other family news my oldest neice Lilian, also a teenager may be coming to visit for thanksgiving break, which is just like two weeks away, so thats very exciting, I really love Lilian, she is such an amazing young person, really truly brilliant, I love how she has grown up, and cant wait for the wonam she will be, she seriously is just a really cool person, im glad because that would be awful if she was lame! seriously! so yea, ill kepp ya posted!

Happy Halloween!

So today is Halloween, and it's kinda sad!! why you ask. Because this is pretty much my FAVORITE holiday,and I'm sitting it out this year, at least in the capacity that I'm used to celebrating it in. This is going to be a pretty tame one for me, but thats okay, right? No Freaker's Ball, No parties, No Tahoe, no friends. Not even too much family, most of them all went camping this weekend, and somehow i did'nt even end up going with them. I just LOVe everything attached to this holiday, the dressing up, acting like a kid, carvinig a damn pumpkin, which i didnt even do this year!! that actually kinda upsets me! ;( And Halloween in Tahoe, it has ALWAYS been the BEST! EVERYONE dresses up, everyone goes out !, definalty one of the best nights to party in Tahoe! Next year John, next year! As much as I hate it right now, I'll be fine, really, i just miss being social. I went to a bar ast night and drank my first Long Island in WAY over a month, it was pretty good! There actually is a party I was invited to tonight, my friend James Terry is throwing a party in Sacramento, "The Naughty Ball" at Zokku, a pretty cool club downtown, I did tell him I would go a few weeks ago, but now it dosent seem like I will, so what the hell am I complaining about anyways?? I guess all I'm saying is there are certain things I will miss about Tahoe, certain things I will not, Halloween is one of the things i will miss this year! The only party I will be attending this Halloween is my Goddaughter, Selena's (Su-le-nuh) Princess party at John's Incredible pizza, she will be turning 4, she will be Snow White, so I guess that makes up for it all, like all of my neices and nephews I have unfortunatley missed some birthdays, so I am VERY happy to be here for this. So Happy Halloween to everyone, however you may be celebrating this holiday, i hope everyone has fun, and is safe, love you all!!!

I love walking, Grapeade and my Sissy!

So, I still haven't hit the streets yet, but I got a call back from one of the resumes I posted online. The job is for a Front Desk Superviser at a local hotel chain, so i scheduled an interview for tomorrow, so we'll see. I am pretty stoked about NOT having to to do the whole "scouring" for a job thing, not YET at least. I figure while I'm all spit shined up tomorrow I will drop a few resumes before the weekend, get the ball rollin, ya know. So ya, Im pretty excited, and interested to see what the hotel is like, hopefully it's pretty decent. So that all means that TODAY i will be getting my hairs cut. i know what you are all thinking, FINALLY!!! I know! Unpacking, I've been looking all all kinds of old pics and thinking to myself, "I remember when I used to look like that! So you'll be able to see my face again! I'll post pics! So yesterday I took a walk around the neighborhood just for the hell of it ( i was BORED!). It's a really cool area, all old style houses, tree lined streets (not like the trees in Tahoe! ;) ), very "cute'. And you will all be happy to know that the three closest liquor stores to me ALL carry Arizona Grapeade!!!!!! ( You all know how important my Arizona's are to me!!) So you can imagine how exciting that was. I also met another neighbor, well not RIGHT next door to me, but a block away or so, some younger guy who was hanging out on his front porch smoking, he saw me walking and asked if I needed a ride. I declined since the purpose of my walk was simply to explore, but did stop and chat for a few minutes of friendly conversation. It sucks tho cause I forgot his name!!! hahaha! He livs close, I'm sure I'll see him again. Oh yea, how could I forget! SO i got this crazy myspace message the other day, and it was from an one of my older sisters, not my BELOVED sister Selina, but one of the sisters from my Dad's side, that I havent seen in OVER ten years or so. I accepted her friend request but havent replied to her message yet. The last time I had anything to do with either one of them, I was like 16 or something, going through all my own shit at the time, and they were around my age now, (well one is 37 now, one is 32 or something) and they were both going through whatever it is they were going through at the time, so I guess you could say I didnt care too much about "needing" them in my life, I was never raised with either one of them, and before that had very limited contact with them in a few years, when i was around 13, 14 i did try and get to know them but like I said they had their own lives going on, (drugs, crazy bf's, whatever...) So at one point I decided I didnt really need them in my life. Even though i had the void of my Dad not beiong around I always felt like I had a sister, the best sister anyone could have, and I didnt have that void to fill. And I still feel that way, especially after the past few years, you all know what my life has been like, the ups, the downs, and i definatley have EVERYTHING I need and more in a "sister". As I get older though, I dont feel the need to "replace" her or anything, and if i take the step to have anything to do with them, thats not what it'll be about, because I do feel like I have no negativity towards them, like I said years have passed and I have been through all my own shit and can maybe relate to them more than i ever could have, so we'll see. I love you Sissy!

kittens

update! So, im pretty much all moved in to the new place, I've just left a few things around here and there but should be done soon. I did unpack most of my things and put together my room pretty quick, as much as I wanted to put it off, I thought to myself, "What would Angelina say?"!!! So I did as much as I could! ;) I think I'm really going to like it here, I've yet to really explore the neighborhood, maybe I'll take a little stroll around later today. I've only met one of our direct neighbors, this guy who lives with a couple and their kid, young white guy, seems around my age, possible smoking buddy??? Meeting new people..... crazy! So, I'm not sure but I'm thinking about taking another stab at having a kitten, i really need a best friend, but what if they dont like me!! Cat's are vry unpredictable, and I'm still a little traumatized about my attemp of adopting a cat last year, I think we all remember what happened to Pepper....;( So, i know as crazy as it sounds i still haven't started looking for a new job yet! I know, I know! One thing at a time, now that i'm all moved in I will take that next step, I'm the typ of person thta needs to FOCUS one one thing before I should start taking on several tasks and end up finishing NOTHING, so yea, I mean I've sent out some resumes online, and applied to wherever I can online, but haven't actually "hit the streets". But when I do I can start looking at places close to here, it seems like there is ALOt more than there used to be downtown, so gimme a few days and I'll let you all know how it goes. But yea thats it for now. Think Kittens!!

just checking in...

I know, its been a few days, ive just been figuring out some stuff (my living situation... i was supposed to move into a place, but i decided to at least postpone that for now beacuse i think its too damn far away!) which is all set and starting to move in, well I will be this week, so YAY!!! that'll be fun. i'll fill you all in on details as they unfold, but basically Im moving in with my Tia Liz, who can definatley outshine me in the crazy department, so i'm sure that'll be lots of fun!! But it's cool she lives in a really cute place right near downtown Modesto, which is cool for me because right now with no liscence (and my Mom is being pretty strict about me driving with no liscence) it's very centrally located , so I can just go out and do things without HAVING to drive, everything is pretty close, places to work, bars, grocery store, all of that all in walking distance, so yea Im stoked, just have to organixe all my crap so Im not moving in shit I dont need. but yea, ill keep you posted as cool things happen.

Missing some people

Just some pics of some very special people to me back in Tahoe, not everyone, but most of my favorites, I miss you all and i love you!!! (from the top its l-r, Tristen, Angelina, Jess, Jason , Cale, Ana, Rich, Jenna, Double, Meg, Caitlin & Tom)